Life...

It's amazing how life can change in an instant. The last time I blogged I was sick, on my way to Maui and Married.

Today I am recovering from a stroke, on my way to Maui again soon, and no longer married.

Everything changed for me last year.

But without going into all the drama (because really there is none) let me tell you how free I feel and how in control I still am of my eating. I surpise myself that in those moments of despair I did not turn to food. I learnt (through weight watchers) food was not my friend. I also learnt after my separation that binging on food with my ex, was something we did because it brought us false comfort. I continued to take control through this all.

I am aware of my feelings now and I am so much more prepared to handle them with positive choices.

Best of all I have managed to lose 54lbs so far because of these choices.

Food for me is no longer a want, it's a need. I know I need it so I eat what my body needs when it needs it. I make smart choices and I am very proud of what I have done. To this day I have not yet worked out. It has all be by food choices.

This year for Maui I bought not one but two bikinis.

I am so going to rock them.

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I'm going down...

So for the past 3 weeks I have been battling Bronchitis and I thought I was about to die. But alas, I didn't. What has been going down still is my weight.

I am 17 weeks (4 months) in, and am 30 lbs lighter.

Yes 30 lbs.

Now I know that seems small for 4 months but I have really only changed my food habits. I have yet to start exercising and am wondering what will happen when I do get on a plan and stick with it. I'd assume I'd finally start toning up and that would be nice. Things are kindof hanging on me if you know what I mean :)

It's really amazing to feel healthier and look so different, just from food. I have to say I have really skimmped on the milk in 4 months and my nails are having a heck of a time. I assume it's dairy issues?? Who knows.

I had this wild dream I'd be at 185 for Maui and I am currently sitting at 187lbs so I think I might actually be able to achieve that in 20 days.

Let's see what the next few weeks brings.

2 weeks

It's been 2 weeks since I have finished my WW program and now I am on to doing it at home. In 2 weeks, I was sure I gained weight. But nope...

I lost.

Maybe only a pound a week, but it's down and not up so it's all good to me.

I am hoping by the time I get to Hawaii in 34 days, I will have broken into the 185 range. That would be super rad.

Slowly

I am slowly becoming a person I totally forgot about.

It's a weird feeling.

Weird but good.

Like yesterday, I bought some new pants in a size that I can't remember being in for a very long time.

Yesterday I saw someone who I haven't seen in a long time and they took one look at me (in my new pants of course) and said "wow, your shucking off the pounds eh"

Weird that I'm not sure what to say.

It's very hard for me to take a compliment on my looks as it's not something I have really done before. I am a funny and kind person so people would tell me that often but to comment on my looks...

Weird.

It's all so weird but also so freaking amazing.

Like wow.

WTF

Sometimes this kinda sucks.

Weighed in on Friday this time and I was only down .6lbs. Why is that bad, well because I worked my ass off working out and running the whole week.

It almost seems the more I exercise the more I don't lose.

And last night I had fish and chips.

Maybe it's time for a bit of a breakdown?

No, must stay focused.

Hawai is in 65 days and I need to do this.

I DID IT!!!

As of this past Saturday I am finally under 200 lbs. This was a HUGE milestone for me.
HUGE
HuGe
huge
Huuuuuuuuuuuuge

I have only a few weeks left before I am finished my 12 weeks but I know this is all about a lifetime of change. And the change only gets better each week.

Geez..

I thought I had it today, I really did. I thought today was the day I'd be under 200lbs. I worked out 4 times last week, ate right but still only lost 1.6 lbs. It was a little frustrating for sure. I totally thought I nailed it.

Oh well, next week right? I have 4 weeks left and it's over. These need to be the best 4 weeks yet.

I can do this.

I know I can.

I will do this.

Think Hawaii...

Think Happy...

Think Healthy...